It’s a very odd way

to look for God’s face

in these doorways

that seem to pour away

all the brandy

from the bottles,

but I’ve hit

another bottom.

And guided missiles

and misguided men,

guised or

disgusted or

lacklustre,

have never shown me

a better way.

——

See, I’m afraid of my own brain:

How swiftly it runs to its own terrible conclusions,

How fast and with such precision it dives deep into the strongest currents of the sea,

How expertly it wipes away all other realities but this one:

You are a failure.

——

But,

if witches were pin ups

I’d pin you down

and bury my faith 

between your honeyed thighs.