One year and

Three hair colours between

Two photos.

Has it been a lifetime?

Or just a moment?

My soul is tired.

My heart hurts more often than it doesn’t.

Every time I survive the worst waves

and start treading water

and start catching my breath

and start believing land might be somewhere on the horizon

it turns out it’s the swell of a tsunami.

And a spiritual guide pointed out the convergence and 

the pulling apart from all angles.

He used his hands to demonstrate and 

in this viscerally

I felt seen for the first time.